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From: "jack twist"
To: "Ennis Del Mar"
Subject: Re: Underground
Date: Tue, 1 Oct 2008 03:42:40 -0500

Dear Ennis,

Today, there was a security alert on the Underground. I was trapped on a train for over an hour, stuck in a tunnel. I ain't ever felt so scared in all my days. My heart was pounding. I wanted to sit down but it was choca full. I closed my eyes and kept counting: by the time I get to 100 the train will start to move. Like magic. Only the magic ain't working. Do you ever feel stuck like that?

JT

From: "Ennis Del Mar"
To: "jack twist"
Subject: Re: Underground
Date: Sun, 12 Oct 2008 15:01:01 -0500

hola jack, I'm glad u emailed coz i wasn't sure if u would after last time. i thought about what u said, about s[litting and stuff but i don't know. we can meet on friday. over where we normally go?the underground story sounds like shit. i hate it anyway, you know now with all them terrorists stories. i don't know, feeling stuck... maybe that's just what all of it is about. and nothing else happens. i mean i don't know but like u says magic ain't working. maybe coz when u get born and u ain't lukcy that's just the way it is. maybe we should run away to spain and work in a bar and eat fish and stuff. i mean by the sea? friday, right? email me. e.

From: "jack twist"
To: "Ennis Del Mar"
Subject: Re: Underground
Date: Thu, 21 Dec 2008 05:42:40 -0500

Spain? Like on EasyJet? EasyJet, EasyEverything...

Where on Friday?

JT

From: "Ennis Del Mar"
To: "jack twist"
Subject: Re:beers n cards!
Date: Mon, 25 Jan 2009 07:02:47 -0500

Jack
I'm working on the spain idea maybe this summer... There's a lock up it belongs to my dads mate and I got the keys till sunday. I been clearing it out for him for a bit of cash. There's a settee in there! Friday at 8pm here the add...Chisel st ec1, near Old st the block of flats is called Maply House and lockups are below. Text me when your at the flats and I'll come get ya!! Bring some beers mate and i'll bring a PACK of cards...yeah man it'll be cool!! E DM

From: "jack twist"
To: "Ennis Del Mar"
Subject: Re:beers n cards!
Date: Thu, 6 Mar 2009 19:11:32 -0500

Hey.
We still talking? I didn't mean what I said. Honestly didn't mean it. You jus freaked me out, is all. And then my sister there, guess I just panicked. Like on the tube, I get panicky Ennis. I'm not used to this shit. ANyway, I hope we're still talking cos I never felt like talking more and there ain't no one else I can talk to. My sister - she won't say nothin. She owes me.
JT

From: "Ennis Del Mar"
To: "jack twist"
Subject: Re:beers n cards!
Date: Mon, 8 March 2009 23:02:42 -0500

no sweat Jack. just so you know i ain't no queer. it ain't like that. anyways, it's friday,

so i hope you're coming down.
miss you.
E.

To: "jack twist"
CC:
Subject: Re: easy
Date: Wed, 11 Mar 2009 15:17:03 -0500

man SORRY...one of my mates got jacked that night just before 7.20. he was cut up bad I went wiv him to the Homerton, my mobile wouldnt work in there...Fuckin ell man its like evryfin is blocking us. Wot can I say..listen you set the time n venue and I swear!

Ennis

----- Original Message -----
From: "jack twist"
To: "Ennis Del Mar"
Subject: Re:
Date: Thu, 20 Nov 2009 04:37:00 -0500

COME ON DELMAR...I need to see ya! Its been 7 months now since Spain. Hows the tatoo? Mine's been weeping pus for a while maybe the razor wasn't clean, Man it hurt but I like it. Bin asked loads about it but I aint saying nuffin. I started that new job up central, working with homeless guys. Boy some of them have it well rough out there but they are FREE...I ENVY THAT. Hey if they wanna take a dump guess wot they do: they line their trouser wiv newspaper, squat down and shit...then take the paper out n stick it in a street bin...clever eh!

HEY MAN I NEED TO SEE YA BIG TIME, SOON, TODAY, NOW...
What the fuck ya bin doing anyway? I can't live on texts n emails...

JACK

To: "jack twist"
CC:
Subject: Re: easy
Date: Thu, 20 Feb 2010 11:21:53 -0500

Jack

I can't always get online now I'm living at her's...plus with looking for work still. My Tats cool ...my girlfriends pissed about it wonders what it means n why I disappeared that week!Listen she's pregnant! Thats somefin I've always wanted: A KID!

nuffin changes between us tho, u know what I SAID IN SPAIN--- IT HOLDS!

I guess living rough has its good point. FREEDOMas u say! The night sky yor ceiling eh n shitting in newspapers...your anonymous tho, no one looks at u, they see right thru ya and no one gives a fuck who you fuck either! I ain't gay I just happen to ----you. Make what u want of the ----but it's all good. I woke up the ova night with a big grin on my face, can't remember details but it was you n me in that hotel squashed up in that bath, n water was just pouring out on the floor but we were just shrieking and mucking around like we did. Thank god for dreams, now there's freedom there too...just wish I could program my brain to play it everynight, like it was real...I even had a boner to die for..SOON JT but can't say when...BE SAFE, DREAM...I'll be there.

EDM

From: "Ennis Del Mar"
To: jacktwist@london.com
Subject: Pupps everywhere Jack
Date: Mon, 24 Jul 2010 07:16:46 -0500

Jack, did I tell ya I mated my bitch with my dad's dog Chief. She had six pups last night. Their both pure bred bull mastiffs and the pups are so beautiful Jack. You gotta come and see 'em. Cindy kept me awake all night. She was breathing short, raspy breaths and she kept saying to me I ain't doin this on my own Ennis - don't think your leavin me on me alone sleepin thr this, you betta wake up Ennis. I tried to leave her in her basket but she just howled. So I wrapped her up in my duvet and held onto her. She was shaking and trembling like a leaf. Then all these pups appeared about 4am this mornin - there are 6 Jack - 4 males and 2 bitches. Three of them are white just like Chief and the others are brown like Cindy. I'll be able to sell them in a few weeks - but I don't want to Jack, I wanna keep them all.

It was amazing Jack and afterwards she ate the afterbirth. She sure is the proud mum right now. She growls at anyone goes near them pups, cept me of course.

Wanna pup jack - i named the runt after you! Ha Ha!
lol E

From: "Jack Twist"
To: ennisdelmar@london.com
Subject: Re:Pupps everywhere Jack
Date: Mon, 24 Aug 2010 15:26:55 -0500

Fuckin Hell EDM...I ain't heard from ya for ages properly an all you can tell me about is :PUPS!!! Thats the most you've ever damn well written to me an all...I tell ya somefin for nuffin...your a NUTTER! Maybe you shoud get wiv those pups cos your sure not givin me much...DAMN YOU ennis. I can't live off fresh air n the odd shag...I'm gettin more convo out of the homeless geezers on the streets right now! Yeah your obsessed wiv kids n fucking pups. I feel like fuckin off somewhere, shit man I need to see ya an if it means coing to 'view' them pups then text me an appointment date ya nutter n I'll come over...
Geez man your killing me slowly.

Jack fucking Twist x

From: "Ennis Del Mar"
To: jacktwist@london.com
Subject: Re: Pupps everywhere Jack
Date: Sat, 8th Oct 2010 10:36:31 -0500

They took away my dogs man. That's what hurts the most. I got busted on Mare Street. Some bitch said she saw me breaking into one of the flats They really beat the crap out of me, Jack. They took away all my clothes and made me stand naked while they kicked the shit out of me. They told me a faggot like me would like it in prison. They wasn't happy until I was on the floor and cryin like a baby. Then they gave me this orange paper suit to wear and threw me out of the nick. It was after midnight. I had to walk home in my bare feet. But what cuts me up Jack is that they said I wasn't a fit owner and took away all my dogs.

I went to see my MP but I could tell he thought I was some piece of shit thug. It was my brother man, but what was I gonna say. I need to see you too, Jack Twist, don't you know that. I've got my dad's van this weekend. I can meet ya, let's go.....anywhere....

E

From: "Ennis Del Mar"
To: jacktwist@london.com
Subject: Hello Jack
Date: Sat, 29 Nov 2010 15:01:12 -0500

Jack

I'm Ennis' GIRLFRIEND...I just want you to FUCK OFF n DIE...He aint a PERVERT like you...he's just confused and he don't need this shit! I've read your messages and can see ITS ALL YOU... BEGGING HIM FOR SEX!! He's straight ya know...NOT GAY! He's told you that in his email (I aint no faggot) so just leave us the fuck alone. He don't know I'm sending this cos the idiot forgot to log off and I've SEEN IT ALL. I ain't telling him that I know either cos of the baby BUT IF YOU HAVE ANY CARE FOR HIM AND HIS FUTURE (his family would KILL him if they found out, one of his brothers has DONE TIME for assault on a gay man in Hoxton two years ago...the man is permenantly scared and blind in one eye) This aint no joke so I BEG YOU PLEASE...find some one else, there's plenty out there nowdays but not MY ENNIS.

From: "Ennis Del Mar"
To: jacktwist@london.com
Subject: Hello Jack
Date: Mon, 31 Jan 2011 07:07:13 -0500

Hey Jack

Whats happening? You ain't talking to me or WHAT? Don't fuck about mate...I need to see you but you ain't answering your phone now either...what's going on...I'm going crazy over here wiv the pups gone an all...she's going mad here about NUFFIN...must be the baby, they say women go nuts! Listen I'm off when she has it if thats wots up wiv you...Im gonna see a solicitor bout my rights...see if I can have him cos she aint the full ticket...Do you like kids Jack cos maybe we could all move to Spain eh? Get in touch I need you right now man...PLEASE!

Ennis

From: "Jack Twist"
To: ennisdelmar@london.com
Subject: Hyde Park’s cool
Date: 5th July 2011 04:37:00 -0500

Hey Ennis The kid is cute...he don't look nuffin like you tho? You 100%? DNA n that wouldn't hurt just to be certain eh? Hows fings going wiv the solicitor? I forgot to ask ya I was enjoying myself that much...sitting in the park...sun on my face...you me n Samson...still fink it sounds like a DOGS NAME ha ha it was a laugh eh!! Do ya fink we looked strange, me , you and a baby? I don't fink anyone was bovvered there...just don't to the rough parts of london eh, hanging out in Hyde park's a good idea...people bit more broad minded. So when next? AAND FOR GOD'S SAKE BRING SPARE NAPPIES...he stank the whole tube out man...get wiv it if your gonna have him full time eh!

Jack the- maybe- step- father Twist!!

From: "Jack Twist"
To: ennisdelmar@london.com
Subject: Guess wot!
Date: 6th Oct 2011 07:07:13 -0500

Jack

Hey forgot ta mention my promotion!! yep I'm on BIG BUCKS now...My boss LIKES me alot n finks I can manage the team now, so he's pushing me to take over some of his duties...I fink he's got the hots for me too, tho he's married to another bloke (that civil marriage ceremony lark) He actually had his hand on my back for nearly three minutes when he gave me the news today...I felt sorry for him a bit... he looked desperate to snog me....his face kept gettin closer and he licked his lips several times...a dead give away but I kept cool, not bothered! Now if it was you man I'd be in a HEAP on the floor...see wot you do ta me Ennis man! Now hurry up and arrange a date or I might have to close my eyes n think he's you...I AINT EVEN JOKING... X

ps MR & MR TWIST? or MR & MR DELMAR? or TWIST-DELMAR or DELMAR-TWIST or TWISTED - DELMAR...I like the last...

Mr Jack n Ennis Twisted-Delmar...nice!

From: "Ennis Del Mar"
To: jacktwist@london.com
Subject: Re: Guess wot?
Date: 25th Oct 2011 11:21:53 -0500

JACK DONT FUCK ABOUT...If you SNOG that bloke i'll DO YOU BIG TIME...I'M SERIOUS MAN!!

Your doing my head in now! I keep seeing ya and him in some hotel...can't get it out of my head you BARSTARD. OK I'll get away this weekend...you got me...we'll talk sort things out, I know its tuff on ya cos I got Samson but I ain't touched her since and she's happy with that so...Give me time to sort fings out wiv her n everyfin...but this weekend just me n you...hey since your in the money can you book a hotel...somewhere different this time I didn't like the last one much. let me know?

Ennis Twisted-delmar ha ha

From: "Jack Twist"
To: ennisdelmar@london.com
Subject: I’m back
Date: 21st June 2012 04:37:00 -0500

Hey Ennis

Just got back from New York today...so any chance of meeting this month? Its been crazy wiv the OLYMPIC SHIT man…they are cracking down on the geezers on the street something CHRONIC…Most of em are getting BANGED UP for minor offenses to get em off the street…BARSTARDS…ITS FUCKING ORWELLIAN !! So glad you got off the section man but don't let them give you too much medication you know what they call it on the streets: THE LIQUID COSH! Shit I didn't realize you took Samson's moving to Scotland so bad, I feel for ya man... Can't you get more contact now your out of hospital? You have to TOUGHEN up cos most men don't get their kids when they split from their partners you know that...wot planet you on! Hey contact that group " FATHERS FOR JUSTICE" they know all about access n stuff. I didn't want to see you when you were in that hospital SORRY I just couldn't take it...I feel bad about that... plus I didn't want your family to see me there...might have caused more ructions for you. So anyways I'm glad you contacted my job as they had my new number and when I got back I got your message from them. OK I'll book a hotel sometime this month, we'll have a fancy meal, champagne and I'll get one with a jacuzzi, swimming pool the works man...ANY THING FOR YA! Stay safe till then ...

Jack

From: "Ennis Del Mar"
To: jacktwist@london.com
Subject: Re: I’m back
Date: 30th Aug 2012 07:07:13 -0500

JACK
Glad u came back, I bin fucked up bad by the system they said i was crazy and locked me up i cudnt see my boy she took him away i just lost it man i couldnt sleep just kept puffin day n nite so the pain would go and i kept seein my boy everywhere in the street on the stairway in the shops. they said i grabbed some kid and ran off wiv him but i cant remeber that day i just want him back. then you were gone man and i just wanted to die but now im ok i feel ok. will you help me jack? help me get my boy. i ain't up to much so i need your brain to work for both of us. I ain't on tablets no more just DEPO injections once evry two weeks but I'm getting a flat soon but am in a hostel in finsbury park till it comes thru. I can't stay overnight in the hotel cos I have to be in at 9 oclock the latest cos of the rules but will you pick me up? I will meet you at manor house tube cos i can't always figure out the tubes and they make me paranoid. Cheers jack... cant wait to see you again. i've lost weight and my hairs bin shaved cos they had nits in the hostel so i told em to shave it off. i hope you recognise me but i know i'll recognise you jack...any how, any time any place...sorry my writins a bit fucked but my hands go stiff wiv the injections but are ok after a few days.

ennis twisted-delmar (see I rememered)

From: "Ennis Del Mar"
To: jacktwist@london.com
Subject: Sanctuary
Date: 3RD Jan 2013 11:21:53 -0500

I'm in a sanctuary Jack, well a big house in Salisbury. Twelve of us live here, we have lots of house meetings about who does the cleaning, who oppresses who and what to watch on telly. You should come round, move in even ,the only condition is that you need to have tried to kill yourself oh and to have failed of course. I took a lot of pills and I lived. I think it was an accident, I can't remember, but I got a social worker and my mum worked hard to get me into this place. Everybody here's so fucked, mainly that's the booze and drugs, which we have to stay off to keep living here. I never really been much of a drinker, except to keep the cold out maybe sometimes, and I sure as hell don't want to go back on the drugs Jack. I just want to be left alone.
Did you meet lots of boys in New York Jack? I was wondrin'. You ought to be more careful. You never really knew how to look after yourself, you trust people - you don't want to do that. Ever.

I've got some work as well jack - I work on the farm and in the town, some building work. I just about keep body and soul together. I bought a van I'm planning to go up to Glasgow soon to see my boy he's five now and he's a beauty.

Come round though , come to the farm, everyone shakes as much as you. Ha HaXXXXXXX

From: "Jack Twist"
To: ennisdelmar@london.com
Subject: I’m back
Date: 4th Jan 2013 07:07:13 -0500

Ennis, Salisbury sounds great from ur tone. think would like to come around when i'm back,which isn't till next week. oh no, did u say i must have attempted suicide to qualify 4 a place? not a great idea. what if i attempt it and everytin goes wrong? anyway, still want to be around 4 some years more. yeah, New York's lovely and been having some good times. just met som ol friends, but noting's happening wit anyone-trust m. d beers a cheap,though, but won't have too many so as not to do something silly. will catch up when next i'm able.

jack

From: "Ennis Del Mar"
To: jacktwist@london.com
Subject: Hope ya get email up there!
Date: 15th Mar 2016 11:21:53 -0500

Jack Twisted fucking Delmar...

When you died that summer I wanted to kill someone...I did find a face that I thought could be the one... down by the river and I just let rip...then I legged it after, and as I ran I felt sweet..."THIS IS FOR YOU JACK", kept going round and round in my brain... I went to the heath a few days after and saw all them flowers for you and ugly police tape and I couldn't leave, I sat there all day remembering, drinking...shit it was wierd cos THAT WAS ONE OF THE WORST and BEST DAYS...

Jack....WHY? why did they do this to YOU? I can't believe that you were on the heath that night...you know wot goes on there for fucks sake! If you'd a just come down like I said you fucking be ALIVE man...CRUISING?!! ya didnt need to go so far...they really fucked ya up didn't they, your teeth n they were GREAT teeth knocked out, your head caved in BY A ROCK...JACK WHY?

I left something there for ya....did ya get it? Its buried a little but if ya dig down you'll find two pebbles from that beach in spain...yeah I always kept em in my pocket man one black n shiny the other speckled and rough: like you n me..hey maybe now were HITCHED like ya wanted....Hope you at peace man!! I MADE A CHOICE THAT DAY...I aint ever gonna lose my self again...so I'm up here in Glasgow, volunteering working wiv alcoholics, got a room and Samson stays at weekends...its sweet and MAN DO I DREAM at night like I used now I'm off that liquid cosh shit n NO ONE CAN TAKE THAT FROM ME...see ya tnite JACK don't forget the beer and I won't forget my PACK of cards...Laters man x

Ennis Twisted fucking Delmar